MAMMA HELP ME!!!!!!!!!!!!! (reality tht is nt voiced loudly enuf)

• • Exuberant and smiling..

    He hugged me lovingly..

    Kisses on me he poured..

    With praises about my grace and beauty..

    With chocolates uncle came daily..

    Then I was only 3!!!

    
    

    
    

    My first day of school..

    Uncle held me by my hand..

    Wiping my tears he promised to stay..

    Stay till the bell rang and they let us out..

    An angel he called me- young and naive..

    Then I was only 5!!!

    
    

    
    

    
    

    Hugs got tighter..

    Kisses got longer..

    Uncle told me he loved me so..

    Yet why did it feel so wrong..

    He came mornings so early and evenings so late..

    Then I was only 8!!!

    
    

    
    

    
    

    A feeling of suffocation..

    The feeling of dread..

    Swept over me as he came close..

    In his eyes I saw love replaced with something else..

    As his hands felt me through..

    Then I was only 10!!!

    
    

    
    

    
    

    I want to flee, somewhere to hide..

    But he is present everywhere I turn..

    I know now it is lust in his eyes, evil in his heart 

    and cruelty behind his smile.. 

    He holds me down and I close my eyes..

    Disappearing to a world of my own..

    Here no one can hurt me, no man to touch me..

    From here I don't want to return..

    I am now only 15!!!

    
    

    
    

    
    

    Lifting himself off me he calls me beautiful..

    With a jerk I'm hurled back to the pits of reality..

    With tears streaming down my face I pray silently..

    Strike him down O Lord for he is hurting me..

    Strike him down before tomorrow he comes again..!!!

    
    

    
    

    
    

    Mamma I want u, mamma I need u..

    Your shoulder to cry on, your arms to hug me tight..

    Though I know not how to tell you or explain..

    Its pain in my eyes and fear in my heart you see..

    Oh Mamma...please help me!!!!!!

A journey of the heart!!!!! (ur story or mine)

You stand before me..

Confessing your love..

I want to scream..

Warn you of my core torn apart..

Not a word escapes me as I feel my heart pound..

I go back to the time when you refused to part..

In darkness was I,my world had gone bare..

Solitude my only companion, depression my relief..

You stood beside me, a pillar of strength..

Refusing to desert me to wallow in my grief..

You held out your hand and I turned away..

Lest you see the gashes on my heart..

But you faltered not for a second..

Even on seeing the scars I had got..

You stand before me..

Confessing your love..

I want to scream..

Warn you of my core torn apart..

Not a word escapes me as I look into your eyes..

There I find love challenging the doubt in mine..

The claws of yesterday fall to the shadows..

Abiding its time again to feed on my soul..

But now in your arms I find the comfort of today..

And in your smile the hope of tomorrow..

The beauty of now leaves the horror of the past,

And uncertainties of the future all far behind..

You stand before me..

confessing your love..

I want to scream..

Warn you of my core torn apart..

Not a word escapes me as I feel my heart pound..

I look into your eyes, the same look in mine..

I place my hand in yours,

for the shattered pieces of my heart

you have joined..!!!!